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Ok. WAAAAY behind on updating this thing. I am SUPER stoked about getting ready to get out of the Army. Yeah it is a little early to be getting to excited, but here I am all the same. I've been accepted to the Art Institute of Colorado to go get my BA in Digital Filmmaking and Video Production. Hopefully at the same time I'll be working improving my photography skill. So much is changing right now. Some of it is a little scary, but most of it is just plan exciting. I have a few projects in the works right now. I am getting ready to submit some photos to an army wide photo contest. I probably don't stand much of a chance given what I saw from last years entries, but I'm giving it a shot. Well that's it for now. Here about a month I'm going to be shooting some photos back in the Midwest. I can't wait.
So. This is my life?
So yeah.
I guess I'm kinda getting used to my new life style. I recently joined the Army and even more recently was assigned to Fort Stewart Georgia. It is an ok place. There isn't a lot to do, at least near by. It's a strange way of life. Before joining I daydreamed about military life. Now that i am in a long for being a civilian again. :P
I suppose as time goes on I will get more used to it. I will learn my way around better, and maybe even grow to like this place. For now. I'll just stick to trying manage dealing with what I've got.
I really want to light myself on fire!
I really feel like lighting myself on fire right now. This last week and a half, two week, summer, it all just seems to kinda get worse and worse. It gets worse for me, and my family to boot. What's wrong? Where to start?! I am slowly becoming more fearful that I may lose the woman I love forever. Worse yet I confessed my love to her, but alas. It was all for not. I kissed her and told her how I felt. She didn't kiss back. She told me that she couldn't. She didn't want to try while she was still loved another man. A man she has swore never to go back to, or give another chance. All that and she still loves him enough that she couldn't give me
What's going on with my head right now.
My wistful mind shouts and mumbles questions of futures that may or may never be. My mind uneasy and my soul heavy. I find myself questioning my purpose. I find myself looking toward the future as if through fog. I see only the things that I have laid before myself. My plans guide only parts of my life. Destiny perhaps guides the rest. Maybe fate, chance, or perhaps what I choose to do next. Not matter what the case my be what regrets may I have to live with? I shall try to live with none, but I can give myself no assurances. Hope is what I have, and hope will do for now.
Moving On
Ok. So I have not been active for a while due to recent events in my life. All that aside, I'm try to get back into the swing of things. I am going to try to get 5 new projects up in the next 4 weeks. Hopefully things will go according to plan. I doubt they will, but only time will tell.
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